Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Goals- Week #1

Food- track my food choices on dailyplate.com every day.
Water- drink 8 glasses each day.
Exercise- I purchased a 3 month membership to a local gym. Goal is to go 3 times this week.
Weight loss- 5 lbs. Totally achievable for a 1st week on a new program.

A New Year, A Fresh Start

So it's been a long time since I've blogged here. Last year's weight loss competition went really well. I ended up coming in second and losing 42 lbs! The summer went well and I really enjoyed feeling fit and looking better. But somewhere along the way I stopped trying. Due to a few circumstances in my life, I stopped exercising, starting eating what I wanted, and found myself depressed. Really depressed. I think I'm still a little bit there, to be honest. And now one year later, I have gained everything back except for 10 lbs. Ugh.

This sort of spiraling downward has led to me pulling away from relationships and things I used to love. I don't really smile much anymore. I feel so ashamed and guilty and everytime I see my friends who've kept their weight off, I want to run and hide. I have so many regrets and so much shame to work though. I'm so thankful I don't have to stay here in this place. I can choose to make changes again, to take control, to surrender to the Lord and let Him lead me again.

So I'm looking for a fresh start. Today's plan is to log my food, get in a workout, and go grocery shopping for lots of healthy options. I'm setting small goals and not beating myself up over them. I have to start believing that I'm capable of success. It's one thing to change your body, but it's an entirely different thing to transform one's mind.